fickleo_me

When feelings involved .

2012-02-05T17:23:00.001+08:00

Make me angry somemore laaa! Kay laa . I felt pretty bad making him wait for a reply and all .

Should I give this a chance or keep the door close ? Well ...

2012-02-03T01:44:00.001+08:00

I came to realise that I don't need a person like you in my life anymore . Not even as a friend cause whats done cant be undone .

2012-01-22T18:51:00.003+08:00

TEAM YOUNG WOMEN

So last Thursday half of the team were at OCH for our medical check-up. But that's not what I wana share about . So let's skip this part .

We then headed for a game of bowling at Marina . Thats not what I wana share either. Hahas.

So the five of us headed down to the riverside and talked . We talked about the simplest things , like how we were dissapointed witht the graduation night , how we disliked the treatment and such .

And then came our confession period. It's crazy how we though each of us are happy with life but instead we're not . And how we hated guys, that does not mean we're homo . Just that most of us are being dissapointed again and again that its taking alot of our time just to build the trust back . Just like what Miza said " I am happy with myself " .

Like of course there are times when we will just go " I wish I have a boyfriend " but why get a boyfriend just because we're lonely ? We get one once WE ARE READY . There's alot of difference there . I don't find a need to have one right now so get that in your freaking head . K I am hungry now .

till then.

2012-01-19T04:00:00.001+08:00

Contraband with Ysn on Saturday . It's been donkey years since I last saw him . But in anyway , the movie was pretty good , I am not a fan of action movies but that show was good indeed .
So we rushed home since that man wanted to catch the Lions game . Headed down to Besty place for the game and stayed over watching The Bachelor Pad . So it was an amazing day .
The following day I am supposed to tag along with him and his colleagues to St. John Island . I was alittle half-hearted heading there causeee , I have never been there and I dunoe , the place doesnt seem right . So ditched them . But I'll for sure tag along the next trip .

2012-01-01T13:59:00.001+08:00

Well a Very Happy New Year to you Bitchessss out there !

How I welcome the new year this year was rather hmmmm . How do I say this? -.- Hahah!
So started work at freaking 8.30 in the morning . Yapps and this awesome girl wasn't late that day . It sounds a little weird but yes I wasnt late . And this amazing girl ends work at 5pm but being too awesome I extended work till 8 . K no . I extended again till 9.30 . Thats e max I can go else I would have extended till midnight since the crowd at USS is effing awesomeeeeee\m/ Haah. Not really la , but the atmosphere was really good .

So met buddy for dinner at Coffee Club again! Yes we did have coffee club last year countdown . We headed to rather so many pointless places before settled for Bowling at WC and we only have an hour to play before it closes .
Lane22 is fine with me not till I saw this familiar faces . It's HIDAYAT! My heart beats so fast . I dunoe wether I should be happy but I just hafta ask for a change of lane . Awkward moment much . So thats about it . K bye !

2011-12-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

Who needs a guy when a bestfriend is all she needs?

Accompanied Bitch to USS since she's bringing her cuzzy from Malaysia. I've been to USS countless of times but its one of my best visit there though I barely know them , it was definitely a good dayy.

Some people just don't deserve a second chance:/

#random

2011-12-25T01:01:00.001+08:00

I am not supposed to feel this way . But somehow , I MISS YOU . It's been a year plus since . Wherever you are , have a great year ahead :)

2011-12-03T20:34:00.002+08:00

I.DON'T.TRUST.GUYS

I do listened to my good male buddies when they are feeling shitty and all . But hell no, I am buying their stories . HELL NO .
Come to think of it maybe it's just karma .

So in anyway , we had our finals last weekend . We met Borussia Zamrud again but this time all their key players are players . I would rather if we meet Police instead .
We did well , keeping the score at 2-2 not till the 80-85th mins .
Final score 3-2 .

2011-11-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

Serving the country .

I found myself crying and crying watching videos of soldiers surprising their family members on their homecoming . Just watch some of it , it's really amazing and definitely touches your heart . You can definitely feel how much they missed their loved ones .
Imagine spending years not meeting your family members . It's crazy mann! CRAZY ! And they are doing this for their country , how patriotic is that?

LOVE MEN IN UNIFORMS <3 ALOT!

2011-11-12T23:31:00.005+08:00

Just feel like posting up few more pictures. For nothinggg-.-

When life gets boringggggggggggggggggg......

2011-11-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

He may be attached , married or what so ever . But I feel that these people are able to understand me more . Even your closest friend couldn't understand you the way they do .

2011-11-10T17:44:00.002+08:00

Ryan "Mickey" Mclean .

Boy oh Boy ! Why arent all the Chefs look like him?! Or at least the chefs in USS pretty please . I'll be the most faithful employee if you hire him in USS . Hahaha. He's like omgly sexy . Mickeyyyy! Pleaseee be The Bachelor on season 18 . aaahh~

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So we won the match yesterday with a score of 6-2 . It was the game to win . Like die die ,we hafta to win . And we did .

But something have been weighing on my mind eversince I woke up on the match day . I was thinking to myself , till when I wana priotise football? I am not getting any younger , and I think I am not getting any better at football . It's like I am at that stage that I cant improve myself anymore .

For the first time in my life , I have never felt that I wasnt myself at all . My mind and heart was so heavy . I am just so worried about something and I cant fugure out what it was . It was so bad that I felt like breaking down .

I just feel like it's time to do something . Which is to stop playing football, or maybe stop playing football competitively. It's time . It's time to get myself a proper job , work my ass off , save money and lead life the way it's supposed to be. As of now, I feel like a failure in life , I seriously think so . I am not contributing anything to my family , financial wise . Seriously what the hell am I doing now? I dont wana depend on the family for my expenses , and I managed to do that . But that's just not enough .

However , i just couldnt see myself getting out of the team . I am beginning to love the team . I really do .

I am just feeling so crazy right now . So crazyy that at this point of time I feel like consulting a counsellor . I am just so fcuked up.

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Today's 10/11/2011 . It's Mom's birthday .

It's been almost two years since she left . And I still find myself crying to sleep at night . I just miss her so bad . So so freaking bad .

Everytime I recalled the day she left , the whole drama that I went through when I received the news , I felt devastated .

When she was stil around , I wasnt a good daugther at all . Sometimes we dont talked to each other . Few times . And each time ,it would dragged as long as a YEAR .

I LOVE YOU MUM . AND I MISS YOU SO FREAKING BAD . HAPPYBIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH .

2011-10-27T14:30:00.002+08:00

Got back from Laos few days back . We spent 10 days . Well in actual fact we are supposed to be back here in Singapore on Day 7 but I guess the team is just too awesome that the hotel and LFF managament decided to sponsor our stay there for another two days . Omg . I seriously have like so many things to talk about this trip .
So Mr Jita sent us off early in the morning . And the U-16 boys coach , I have no idea what his name is , but he's a Japanese Dude :) But in anyway , I was really sad that Dad was nowhere to be found . He wasnt home the entire night:( I was really really dissapointed . But well..

Day One-
Reached airport , transit flight to Laos . We spent like 2 hours there. I would love to be in Thailand for a getaway though .
So reached Laos , the hotel didnt dissapoint me at all , haha . Its a pretty nice hotel . My roomie was Cindy , she's the craziest person in the squad :)
Settled down. Off for training .
And my entire box Oreo got confiscated during the spotchecks . what the frucccck!

Day Two
Limbering . Phone got confiscated due to the game the next day . well it doesnt really afffect much cos there's no freaking wi-fi in the hotel. Annoying max!!

Day Three (Game Day)
We lost but yaa . Nothing much to day actually .

Day Four
PLayed left mid during training . But wtf just training oni , he will never put me on the wings for a real game:/ During dinner sheryl laughed her ass off seeing Ms Tan tripped . It was really funny but her laughter was just hialrious. Was alone in the room when got pranked by Cindy and Kristy.
"Hello! Did you order a huge sausage?" HAHAAHHAHA!

Kay lah. I shall skipped all the day-day thingy . So to sum it all , it was definitely an awesome trip . We were treated sooo good . Like seriously , its like as though we've won the tournament . Hahaha. We went for lunch on e boat . it was sponsored as well. And oh! we upgraded our room . From e standard to like you know the VIP kind. How fucking awesome is that.

Well , people from other country supported our team like crazyyy. Sponsoring this and that..

When I came back to Singapore . It's kinda dissapointing . But well. It has always been this way .

When we said we lost . All they was " Yalah , where got hope wan" or "Singapore lousy " but the thing is they arent aware of what's the team like . They dont watch us play , they dont have a freaking idea how our players are like , and how the players from other countries are like.

You guys sucks mann! lols.

2011-10-13T12:58:00.001+08:00

All the daily trainings , hardcore sprinting .. Just all the crazyyyy drills we had to do during training that at times I felt like dying is all worth it . Kinda thankful that I made it into the squad . Really thankful .

Awayy for AFF tomorrow . Wish the Lioness luck ! :)

Have yet pack the luggage . So many things to do , so litlle time .

2011-09-25T19:27:00.002+08:00

We used to be so close . So closeeee, that we almost meet every single day . We used to kick around together , just hanging out with the rest , having the time of our life , laughing our ass off.

As time passed , we appeared as though we do not each other , but at least we did exchanged smiles and all .

I was shocked to death knowing you've left . It happened so fast , I couldnt believe what I saw , all the facebook updates about you . It's crazyyy .

I am just hopinhg the best for your gf .

Rest in peace Khairul Nizam .

2011-09-23T17:14:00.003+08:00

The Muslims Soundstage crews decided to ditch work one Sunday to Raya-Raya ^^

Life's pretty hectic with the everyday-training . I didn't had time to like watch movies , chilling out and such . There's definitely lots to sacrifice . I am just hoping it's all worth it . Well , I definitely hafta fight hard for the spot . There's like 5-6 players fighting for the Centre-Mid positions . Tough mann! Not for them but for me . I wouldn't be surpised if I am not in the list but it'll be demoralising . Hmmm.

BFF

2011-08-31T00:26:00.001+08:00

Dayat buddy ,
Well ya.. we've made a promise that we will remain as bestfriends , that we will not fall for each other . But I can't seem to keep my promises . Sorry Nyah! :)

2011-08-25T19:28:00.004+08:00

And so I hit the big TWO few days back . Thanks for the wishes via FB ,twitter and of course all those text messages

Just so you know , I love you guys so effing much .

Combined schools + Young Women = Fawesomeeee

Well this Bitch owe me big time . Hahah. But I still love you .

Well brothaa! Thanks for making the effort . Really appreciate it lots . Eventhough it's been ages since we last met , you still made the effort to celebrate my day . Well seriously from the bottom of my heart Thank You buddy:) Wish you all the best in your relationship and this may sound gay , but I really appreciate your presence in my life. I fucking sweeet right? I know . K bye.

till then .

2011-07-26T20:39:00.002+08:00

I was on SPF's page , wondering wether anot to click onto the "Apply" button. As much as I wanted to , I doubt I'll be up to it . Damn it .

2011-06-06T03:35:00.002+08:00

Hi Bitchessss !

It's already 3:35 am and I am still up finishing these annoying assignments . I totally agree with the statement " Design kids lack of sleep " Whoever made that up , you \m/ Kay nvm .

Seriously I tried my best to be like a friend to the two of you . I listened to your stories , played the most stupidest game with you kids . I don't expect you two to .... i don't know...

I just want a little respect , I am elder than you guys after all . I hate it when someone who is younger than me asking me to do this and that . Worse if you shout at me . I swear at that point of time I feel like slapping your faces . But I dont wana create more awkward moments . Just a LITTLE respect will do .

2011-05-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

So seriously , my life kinda suck real bad now . It's been donkey years since I last catch a movie , what more hanging out with buddies . It sucks so bad .

But will definitely have time for family :D We had a day out to ECP last weekend for blading / cycling . Well blading definitely made my day . All of us rented a pair of blade each . The girls did pretty good , but the guys ...... *smacks forehead* HAHA! Later in the day we rented .. I don't what its called . Like tri-shaw kinda thing.. Kecoh giler ^^
I gotta give Zoo and Wild2 Wet a miss today since I am working tomorrow and won't have time to finish all this annoying assignments then :( ergh .

I am tiredddd . Kayy. Since when im not , right? blahhh~

Dear Mum ,
It has been more than a year since you left us . I miss your presence .
Insyaallah , bro and sis getting married this year . You must be happy :) Only if you are still here witnessing their wedding , it's definitely gonna be great . Adik sayang Mak k :))

Till then <3

2011-04-30T00:09:00.003+08:00

Finally decide to post an update after donkey years .

Life's been pretty hectic . So many things going on eversince school started . Like seriously MANNNYYY.Hmmm. Come to think of it , I don't really have anything to say uh actually . Like macam paham only wana post post all .

I am really really excited for POL-ITE this year . Like fucking excited :D

K bye .

Yw

2011-03-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

So I've started to train with the YW again . New bunch of teammates , mostly the u-16 players . Oh wait ! 80% are u-16 players I think . Haha . It's seriously felt different in a nice way . It made you feel damn Auntie uh . Love the team . The younger ones are awesome \m/

We had our medical checkup few days back . The day I began to gel up with the team . And oh ! The doc is cute . K no link -.-

I shouldn't fall for you . I shouldn't . Ahhh~ I don't wana get involve with all this "love" matter anymore . Not for now . I shouldn't . KNN .

Bolaaaa

2011-02-28T15:02:00.001+08:00

Trying to gel up with the new team . It's been fine .

Oh ya . Managed to play for the last game . Though it's for 20mins , im kinda glad . Cos wasn't expecting to play at all . But yaa , of course I felt lost though I managed to get back playing centre-mid position . It's different play from NYP team .

Bolaaaa

2011-02-28T15:01:00.001+08:00

Black Figure encounter

2011-02-12T21:53:00.001+08:00

So I was in the control room waiting for the show to start . As I was looking at the camera booth . Somthing caught my eye . A black figure standing at the corner of the room . However due to the camera position im only able to see half of the figure , waist-down. I freaked out . Who wouldnt? I stared at it long , tryin to guess what it is . And seriously , what happened next was shocking !!!! Not . Its a muslim lady wearing a black jubah . Goodness !!

Fuck off dude

2011-02-11T03:08:00.001+08:00

I really don't know what to do . I just wana say this straight to you fuvking face that you're just a pain in e ass . Really . Seriously learn how to fuvking move on . I know it's tough . But it's fucking possible . Just fuck off . Really .

Nadh Jamil

2011-02-04T19:14:00.004+08:00

Cause I love my lifeeeee <3

Universal Studio with cousins and family .
Bali with cousins and family .
Im pretty much excited for the USS trip instead .

Now I don't really feel we can click like we used to . Nothing happened. We just can't .

:))

2011-01-19T02:01:00.001+08:00

2011 has been good so far. Well , I can't say much cos it's only January now . Haha.
Giselle called me just now. And she broke a happy news to me. Coach was asking if I am interested to play for again . Hell yeah !! Haha. I am happy mann !! I am !

2011-01-06T17:26:00.002+08:00

So dearest Aisyah and Edy bought me my supper/bfast(I don't know) last Friday . They came to my place all the way from Mustafa Centre just to pass me my thosai . How sweeeeet . It was already three in morning , not sure where to head down to , so Edy drove us to WCP to hang out. Ate and Monopoly Deal-ed . After that the three of us chilled in Edy's car to listen him lecture . Seriously what he said does make me guilty. Like wtf am I doing with my life now . After enough of talking the man wana watch some Hindi movies . And we watch using my handphone. HAHA. Super small screen . But whatever , it was relly nice hanging out in the middle of the night not knowing what to do . Bitch rocked my world :D

A little update about work . 10-5 is already married with a kid . Goodness . I should stop 10-5 married guys . HAHAHAHA . Like seriously .

Work has been awesome lately. We had our AO anniversary celebrated in USS itself . Food was fantastic , colleagues were amazaing. After the dinner , AO peeps participated in Treasure hunt . Running around the park with the lights out playing stupid games is like one in a lifetime experience . Working in a theme park has alot of its advantages :)

2011-01-04T13:37:00.002+08:00

Firstly , just wana wish you guys a very Happy New Year .

No new year resolution because I really think that it's pretty stupid . Lose weight lah , study harder lah. Don't "macam paham" cos 99.9999999999% wouldn't do anything about their resolutions anyway . So ya. Stop bullshitting please.

Well , welcomed 2011 with a blast with Bitch . Went to Marina Bay Countdown as it was really a last minute plan . Drank and partied . Wanted to head down to Zirca after the whole MBC but like a lot people like dat . So walked all the way to Somerset and have our hmmm bfast? Haha . It was good .

2010-12-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so lost . Not knowing what I really want in life . I don't even know what I want now .

2010 is coming to an end in just a cou.ple of days . It hasn't been a good year this year . Seriously , there's nothing sweet/nice to remember about . Have been going through a lot of shits in life. Well it's a good thing in some way , a lot of lesson learnt from all that .

2011 I need you to be good . Hope it's gona be a good year next year.

2010-12-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

It's dead as for now .

Till then .

2010-12-11T20:40:00.001+08:00

All I want now is a hug and kiss from Mum .

2010-12-10T23:52:00.001+08:00

He came all the way down from old PA just to pass me my "brunch" , Mcchicken when I can really buy it in school and it'll be cheaper . I was really touched by it mann ! I may not express this that well , but sayang kau giler babi punya sia !! Tak bedek .. :)

Sadly our day doesnt end tat well :/
But wateva they are ups and downs in relationship syg .

2010-12-06T22:27:00.002+08:00

School has been crazzayyeee . So many projects , so little time . People always think that design students are pretty lucky for not having exams but they arent effing aware of the amount of projects that are given to us .
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"If I were to tell you something . Promise me that you won't get mad"

What is it?

"I am already in e cab now otw to T.Gardens ."

Seriousllyyyyyyy?

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So he came down again to my place at around 10 plus claiming that he misses me . Awwww~ As we were talking about some stuff , I became really really emotional . I broke down . I was missing Mum so badly at the moment . I don't know , the feeling come and go . And it came at a very wrong timing .But he was really being understanding . He promised to bring me to visit Mum's grave as soon as possible , hopefully this coming Saturday .
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" Eventhough she's gone , I want her to know my presence in your life "

Thank You , AM :)

08122010

2010-11-28T23:16:00.001+08:00

After eight december 2010 , you are all mine . Haha ! No more calls from SPF to get your ass at any stations .

And now , the thought of you getting back to school is scaring the shit outta me . NP got lotsa chiobu wan neh! What more Mass Comm??!!

Imma complain to your mummy if you misbehave . Hehe:))

2010-11-28T22:16:00.002+08:00

" Today's my Mum birthday . So sad I'm at work .My mummy ask me to bring you out with us "

Okay . That made me smile the entire day . Love you Boyfriend . And the next message came in ..

"My mummy is yr mummy too k syg . Hehe . Love you . "

I love boyfriend more after we had a really huge argument few days back .

Met him at Bradell after school that day as he had to submit his MC at some HQ there . We headed down to Town as I had to get stuff from Artfriend . He is being so annoying laughing at the name of the store " Artfriend " . Had Ayam penyet for dinner , forced him to eat the chilli thingy because the boy couldn't stand spicy stuff. Mwahaha . It all went well. Absolutely well . Not till we bumped into someone . What a small world it is . Argued and yadah yadah yadah.

Boyfriend Boyfriend . Love you THIS BIG :)

2010-11-22T01:54:00.002+08:00

Lovey post alert

He came all the way from Bishan by bus which would prolly took around an hour plus to reach my place . He came knowing that I wasn't home just because he wanted to leave something into my letter box . That partcular something that can be passed to me any other time . But that boy insisted to give me on that night , at 12 plus am . He didn't left it into my letter box after telling him that I didnt have e key to it. And he waited till I got home and passed it to me directly . How NB sweet can you be . Fucking touching la sial . Seriously , not kidding .

Had an impromptu date with that man again after school . Headed down to Vivo since didn't know where to go . He withdraw-ed money and insisted to keep it in my wallet . I knew what he had in mind . HAHAHA!:P But too bad . We then headed down to Sentosa . It was seriously damn random .

Seriously you need to put on some weight , and your thigh has to be bigger than mine . Ny next week ok? Eat as much as you want ! I need you be weigh more than me :( HAHA!

He cancelled his California trip which is for 2 weeks .. For ME ! And its effing CALIFORNIA not KL or somthing. I never felt that important before. And I didnt stop him from going wan kay. I just told him that it's pretty long . Mwahaha.

I just hope you remember our pinky promise kay .

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Love AM :)

2010-11-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

Mr Policeman is busy answering hotline calls forgetting this AWESOME girl is waiting for his call/sms . Or maybe I should dial triple-nine <3>

2010-11-13T16:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's game was much of a dissapoinment . We gave our best , very best . But failed to emerge victory . But its okay , heads-up guys .
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We used to spent so much time together , have late talks , random outings . Get to know each other problems , share happiness , and simply just enjoy each other company .But now ,things are just so different . Maybe we've drifted . Okay no , we HAVE drift apart .
That's the reason why I wouldn't mind giving the event a miss and concentrate on my projects instead .
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till then .

2010-11-07T18:54:00.002+08:00

" I thanked the lord above for u each day . Having you is the simple and sweetest life has ever present me . I love you Nadiah"

-Adam

2010-11-01T01:24:00.002+08:00

I am a fan of Randy Orton all of a sudden .

cause he looks like him. mwahaha.

Gotta burn midnight oil tonight because I chose to spent my weekends doing other things when I got tons of assignment to hand in on Monday . I am so dead now . I haven't come up with any shoe designs for tomorrow . Luckily there's no Studio Project tomorrow else I'll just shoot myself down . Like seriously .

Everything just doesnt seem right yesterday . Sissy chasing him outta e house made everyone so emotional . Well I gotta say , I have already treated him as my own brother . Like seriously . :( But thank god , aunty got them back together. :))

I have so much to say about him . But ... I don't know .. Wait till things get a little stable.

2010-10-30T21:49:00.003+08:00

School has been great . Though there's tons of assignment to do , I am grateful now. Mwahaha. Seriously . Classmates are pretty okay bunch of people . Well yea. Ayob is still there , wtf . But I am cool .
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So POL-ITE has already started since second day of school.
We drew with ITE w e score of 2-2 .
Won RP 1-0
Won SP 4-0
Now left with NP which is on the 12 nov. Pretty much the deciding match .
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He has been nice , loving , sweet but I am just afraid history would repeat itself . I am giving it a try . :))

2010-10-16T20:29:00.002+08:00

Please do spare a few minutes reading the above article .
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I came home, saw her stood there to welcome me back . I couldn't believe my eyes seeing my younger sis giving her a hug with tears rolling on both of their faces. I was happy , that Mum is back . I touched her face , gave her a hug and cried .

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Well it was just a dream I had few days back . I was really happy that she came to my dream . I know I wouldn't be able to see her again but at least in my dreams, it will really made my day . Staying home alone does made me think of her. When she was still around, I do not have to worry about being home-alone because she will always be there to accompany me . I am missing her now.

2010-10-16T12:45:00.002+08:00

It was nice seeing you in the controls before taking a long break from work . And I doubt I would not be able to see you on Sunday . Thanks to Dominic , Eswaran and Johari for making everything seems so weird. I don't even dare to make eye-contact with you mann! And that sucks , because I am able to joke around with you back then . dayme! those three man deserve a slap . Haha.
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Let me see your face on Sunday , and I will pluck up my courage again .

2010-10-14T12:34:00.002+08:00

I am back to school this Monday . Yessa! Now , I am just hoping that I will get into Aniqah's class and Photography . Or at least 3D ceramic class. As long as it's not Design History . I took Art History back then that I swear it's damn effing dry . I don't wana go through the same thing again please .
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I got in again , with just one condition from my director . Which is to give my fullest into my projects which of course I did agree with forgetting that POL-ITE is on the second day of school . All games will be at 5:30 and I doubt my lessons will end that early . I am screwed mann!
Plus I was asked to quit work.
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And in anyway ,
I would like to thank ChineePeh for helping me out throughout all these. CHey chey . Like oscar award speech sia . but yea.. Helping me out with m appeal letter , accompanying me for the interview(Which e actual reason was for Mac bfast) Nvm. haha. So yea . Thanks buddy! *bro punch*
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Went out with Syasha to Bras Basah to get my Art stuff > Dinner@Qiji > Shopping > Eat.Pray.Love
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The movie was pretty draggy . But the guys were cute so yea. haha..
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I am super ultra mega excited for school :))

2010-10-11T16:48:00.002+08:00

Work has been ccc-rrr-aaa-zzz-yyy for the past few days . The free flow of guests coming in to our attraction is simply killing everyone . Met a few familiar faces which was pretty nice after a long period of time .
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Had Pesta Sukan yesterday which rather made me pissed . I could ratherr spend the time sleeping . It was a waste of time and money . Period .
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Coach has been terminated which was something I am against for . After getting to know our weaknesses and strength , he's been asked to leave. Okay , I may not know wether he was afected by it but ... POL-ITE is just next week . I may or may not play though . Let's just wait.
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NYP called me today A-G-A-I-N . And I am supposed to be down to meet the director of SDN .

2010-10-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

We won the game against SIM with the score of 7-0 . Though we won , I thought we played badly . It wasnt as good as the play we displayed against SAS . Somehow or rather I disliked being given the band. You wear the band because you're able to lead the team , and perform well and etc. But ... I totally suck that day . Like seriously .
Final whistle.
We then gave Izyani Ghani a surprise since its her 23rd birthday .

And oh! The referees for that match were haawwt. haha. okay sidetrack alrd.

Okay I look retarded here.

After the match we headed down to Lucky Plaza to have our Nasi Ayam penyet plus one more surprise since Sly and Fil came with a birthday cake or something . I swear the crew felt like cursing us cause we were spending a little too long in there and were the last to leave .

Down to waterfront to chill . Played monopoly deal and whatever-that-game-is. haha.

Somehow or rather she seem so familiar. I did not wana acknowledge her because I am afraid she would get embarrassed. Plus I wasnt really sure wether she's really my cuz.Well oh well, she is. It's so gona be awkward when we bumped into each other.

2010-09-30T14:47:00.001+08:00

A game that I have given my best so far . A game that I thought we could have won . We dominated almost the entire match . We did . We played well , very well . A goal from them at the last 20 mins was dissapointing , After all the hard work we've put into that match. I had every chances to equalise it back but my shots were either off-target or went straight to the keepers.
I have never shed tears for any matches . Not even during my under national days , but yest game I did. Guess how dissapointed I was then. We could have won or at least a draw . But i enjoyed yesterday's game:)

2010-09-29T11:36:00.003+08:00

Go watch this movie please . To the non-malay , no worries , there's an English Subtitle. I just find this show damn awesome that I hafta share it with others:) It's not the usual malay love story that you've watch before. And Kasyah(Farid Kamil) , tell me he's ultra sweeeet please .
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Being silent doesn't mean I have nothing to say ...
Sometimes I just don't know wether you are really interested to what I am saying . You appeared oh-so concerned but in actual fact you're just looking forward to share what you have to say. You don't care what you are saying doesn't really interest me but .. whatever.
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I made a wish at 1.11pm yesterday and it did came true . You might call it " coincidence " but I really doubt so . It made me smile from ear to ear mann! After .. let's say .. nearly a month? :) If only I have the courage :)
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But it was not for long , a NB indian lady just have to spoil my mood . I really don't get it with some of the guests , you've paid for almost 70 bucks to enter the park , why not try all the rides? I guess there's lesser than 10 rides to play . Just effing try all of them and don't effing complain that there's lack of attraction when you skipped some of it . You're not just disrecpecting me , you're disrecpecting my other guests as well . You're just one fucking rude lady .
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I want a bestfriend who is a guy . Making me miss the moments I had with my childhood besty , Jacob . How close we are till we are mistaken for being a couple .
How I tried to find him all around the neighbourhood just to cycle together .
How I peep into his house to see wether he's in .
How we just be ourselves and enjoy each other company .
Sometimes I just wish I am still a kid. Don't have to worry about a single shit .
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I want to go for a simple short getaway . Indonesia or Malaysia perhaps . I don't need some fancy hotel . I wana stay in a kampong-like house facing the sea . I just need to rest this mind and find some peace . I am tired .. Mentally .

Behind this smile , there's pain .

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I have decided . If my appeal isn't approve , then let it be . I'll then try to stick onto NYP and join interior or get into RP's sports courses.

2010-09-27T20:16:00.003+08:00

Firstly

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST AISYAH .

It has been nice knowing for the past ... Let's say ... 6 years? Pretty long huh . Wish you all the best in your studies and in life. Stay strong no matter what happen all right? :) And I wish for more Monopoly Deals and random hang out session with you . Totally love it . Haha . Thanks for helping me out when I am in deep shit especially about the lappy incident . Thanks for your time . Love you lah buddy .

p.s Let's wait for Lagenda Budak Setan part 2 k <3

Spent the whole day at home today . Watched KL Menjerit today . I know right~ What an old movie . But I was just in Rosyam Nor's mood . How mann he is . Mwahaha. Sexxaye..

And oh! Rabbit have been cute today .Love him to the max! :))

In anyway lost to NTU with a score of 4-0 . Displayed a horrible performance .
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I am not your slave

Why cant you let me do the things I want at times?

And not always listen to you .

Why can't you just treat me the way you treat others?

Don't you know that you're disrepecting me sometimes?

I just want to be that friend.

2010-09-26T13:03:00.002+08:00

Firstly Happy 22nd Birthday to my dear Sis-sy . You have done tremendously for our family and I would like to thank you for that . I hope we could improve on our relationship , be the way we used to be 4 years ago :))
Once again .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!

Had a match against RP last wednesday . It was a horrible preparation .Only 10 players were there at 7pm . Few others were stuck in the bus. Damn effing last minute . So in anyway won RP 3-1 . hmmm. 2-1 supposingly coz the last one was an own goal . I seriously don't know what Coach wants . Seriously just fug it . And I am not looking forward for the match later .TSk!

Work has been horrible , like seriously . Manpower have been wtf lately . And there are changes in the Tech Services shift ,getting to know alot more TS is great .

Jo : So what do you do on your off days?

BY: Now theres not much to do . Just walk around the interchange lor .

Jo and Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Zaman biler siak nak jln2 kat interchange.

Seriously I am tired of doing this shit . Fun place to work in? Yeah right! Need a new job! :(

And they are back together now . I am seriously happy for them . Wish them all the best in their marriage :)

Lagenda Budak Setan is an awesome show . Goooo watch it . Forced Syasha to watch it and glad that she love it . It's her birtthday tomorrow . aaaaww~

2010-09-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

We had a random night out last Saturday to Punggol for Prawning . It could be awesome if I wasn't working in the day .So in anyway we spent almost four hours prawning . Prawning is so not my thing as it requires alot of patience which I dont have. Haha.
Seri was so dead on that night complaining how tired she was from the game against NP. It was so cute seeing how excited she was talking about soccer. And she didnt prawned at all , all she did was sleep. tsk! But yea , I love random outings with the family <3<3
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After training yesterday , chilled at Lot 1 with C-la and Yani . It was really nice to talk about serious stuff ; work . It really gave me a nice feeling . I don't know why . Laughed till my tummy turned into six-pecs . haha. just exaggerating . mwahah.. suppose to make a move at 1130pm but was really into the convo that we hafta cab home.:(
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And Today was so not my day . Cabbed to work getting to know that my shift was later in the afternoon. And luckily I do not have to last till 2330 . It's so not funny is I were required to finish my shift .
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First show in OCC.

There wasnt any audio during the show.

"Herman!! No audio! How?!!"

"Press show abort!"

*pressed*

"Herman Its still on leh .. How?! Theres no show abort now!! How How??!!"

*looks at the console for zillion years"

"Actually I dont know leh"

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Hahaha. Both of us were like panic at the disco .. So funny!! But it wasnt funny back then lah. It was settled as Eswaran came. Fuhhh! It might causes 11-1 then .
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Ouh my .. There's a new Programmer in LCA who is so freaking hawt! Thought he was malay but then turned out to be Phillipine . Gani! mwahaha. Hot to the max!! But in anyway , work have been sucha bitch with the super ultra lack of manpower . Seriously suck so bad:(
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After work met up with Syasha :)) It was a random meet-up . Chilled out at Esplanade as she was having some probs. Hear her out .After the six years of friendship with her , only now I truly understand what she is going through . hmmmm. It was nice getting to know that she finally have that trust in me to share what she truly feels and going through . I was really honored to be that friend that she feels comfortable talking to :) Just hope for the best .
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Match tomorrow , I am just hoping that I wouldnt be asked to play in the backline . It is seriously not funnny playing in the defence . I is dunt like .
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Till then earthlings.

2010-09-17T04:07:00.004+08:00

Bloggy have been private-d for the last few weeks . 2010 isn't an easy year for me . What happened recently have definitely changed me . But yea , life gotta move on .

Visited Mum on the third day of raya . And of course , I broke down . I miss her so much and yes! I've said this so many times but who cares . I just can't believe that she's not here with us anymore, it happened too fast .

Dear Mum ,

Selamat Hari Raya and I miss you .

On a better note ...

NYP have been doing good so far .

NYP 3 UWC 1

NYP 2 NP 0

NYP 1 Ottawa 0

Was really dissapointed with my play in the last match . I don't know wether I was contributing anything to the team at all . I barely had control of the ball , my shots were super off target and wearing that band was simply embarrasing then .

" Be patient and the goals will come later "

-coach-

That really helped :))

Yesterday had a day out with Syasha. Waited for her to end her school and made my way down to IMM to get her stuff .

-Coffee Club to meet her friend .

-Coffeebean . Helped her to do her essay , well , I volunteered to do it and I realised how much I miss schooling life :(

-Ayam penyet . HAHA . We were the last to leave . I bet the workers were cursing us.

-Esplanade rooftop for Monopoly Deal .

It was really a simple meet-up but I LOVE IT TO THE EFFING CORE . Able to do the things you feel like doing is just amazing . And having someone who would listen to your bullshit is awesomeshitxz! Thanks Syasha .

NYP hasn't call me up and I am so worried . Sem 2 is starting real soon and I haven't receive any news from them yet . I wana play for POL-ITE .

till then .

2010-09-04T20:35:00.002+08:00

Oh my god , I don't know what I have done wrong to deserve all these . If I am wrong , I am sorry because going through all these is just tiring . I am tired . It's making me a little insane .
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I texted her wife yesterday to ask how's she's doing as she didn't texted me at all after I left . Luckily she's fine . Thank God .
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I really know that I am not in the wrong but I am full of regrets .

I kissed with a man who has a wife

I cuddled with a dad

I got into a relationship with a family man .

How does that make you feel if you are in my shoes ?
It's not about wether I destroy their marriage or not . It's just the feeling , the feeling of being so foolish and naive . To put it simple , the feeling of being sucha a dumbass and stupid.

Opy , that kid loves you . I pray to God that you guys be back together .

2010-09-03T16:03:00.002+08:00

My world is crushed now . What had happened has made me a little insane . My mind can't think of other things at all.

Were hearts meant to be broken?

" If you were to know the truth , things aren't going to be the same . And I won't ever be in Singapore again "

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After getting to know the truth ,Opy called me without knowing that my heart have already been crushed . I played along to his game , we laughed , we joke . But deep inside me , I am dying . I can't afford to close my eyes the whole night thinking of what's going to happen next . 6 am I got myself together and headed down to his house to meet his sister who dyingly wanting to see me . I pluck up my courage and met her . What I realy wanted to do was get them back together ,save their marriage , and live happily with their kids who is only 2 years old .
I got out of cab getting to know the "sister" I contacted with the whole night is actually his wife . The moment she showed me their wedding photo to confirm that it's really Opy , I laughed acting that I am totally cool with it . But the fact is that , I felt that everything is gone . We went up to his house , every corner of their house is their family photo . I felt horrible. We went to his room to look at his daughter . And the mom just said

"Baby , this is papa new girlfriend"

My heart seem to stop beating . I am not his girlfriend .
We talked things out while waiting for Opy to come home . I told her simply everything , every single tiny weeny detail . She did the same thing as well.Knowing the difference what he did to me and her simply hurts me. I really hope now, he will spent more time with his family .Especially his daughter. I was playing with the daughter of a guy I fell in love . It hurts , hurts damn bad ...
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0930am. He is supposed to be home . Waited and finally he is right at the doorstep. I sat at a corner hoping that he won't see me before he entered the house.

" What are you doing here?"

His expression was priceless.

" Ma , you want to do this right ? you want to do this right? you better don't regret me doing this right in front of her (daughter) "

"We can settle our own problem , just don't drag Nad in "

"And Nad , i tol you wat just now , If you know the truth , i will never step in this house again . Yes Ma! I will never . "

And they tried to talk things out. Since Opy wanted to have it a private talk , I left .

" I am really sorry ,Nad "

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Opy you have been a really nice guy . You advised me , helped me out , but ... It's just fatherly love. Shower those fatherly love to your daughter. She really love you ,so much . She know that you are home by listening to the sound from your bike. I really hope they will try to talk things out .
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I did love you , but , I guess ... we can never be together .

2010-09-02T13:07:00.004+08:00

Time past extremely fast this year . It's Hari Raya next Friday , believe it or not. It's the end of Ramadhan soon .
Ramadhan is the only month I can save up . Seriously , my pay isn't usually enough to pull me through the whole month . But this month , I did .

In anyway , Soffian Ayiwansa sent me this . He is the kinda guy who make you pissed off like nobody's business. However he is the only one so far that try to make me a better Muslim .

Ramadhan berlalu dan aku berpuasa di dalamnya

Namun...

Solatku masih tidak mahu aku sempurnakan ,

tetapi aku tahu solat itu soalan pertama di akhirat .

Auratku masih mahu dan bangga aku dedahkan

sedangkan perintah Allah mengharamkannya

Kedua IbuBapaku aku derhakai,

sedang Syurga itu dengan redha mereka ....

Ibadahku hanya di bulan Ramadhan

Sedangkan Islam itu sepanjang usia..

Ramadhan berlalu pergi dan aku lalali lagi gembira,

sedang keampunan Allah berganda padanya

Pada masa itu pendek namun aku tidak ambil peduli akannya

Mati itu pasti namun aku tiada bekalan menujunya

Kubur itu kelam dan sepi kerana aku menjauhi Al-Quran

Yang mampu melapangkan dan meneranginya

Syurga itu indah namun perbuatanku

manjadi penghalang memasukinya

Neraka itu amatlah pedih azabnya tetapi aku sibuk

Mencari jalan untuk dihumban kedalamnya

Nyawaku itu hak Allah yang diberi pinjam sebentar

namun aku terus merosakkanya.

Adakah amalanku diterima Allah?

Yang Baik dari Allah Ta'ala

Yang khilaf adalah atas kekurangan diriku sendiri syg:(

I couldn't agree more to what he just said . When I read those , it's like a slap on my face. Well come to think of it , i am not prepared to face Him at all .
I don't deny that my knowledge on all these suck, real bad . And I am not proud of it at all . I feel so fucking stupid . I might joke about it , but seriously , it's no laughing matter .

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2010-08-29T18:48:00.001+08:00

I have never shivered that hardcore before when doing preshow , and just now I just did. Why? Because Farhan was there watching . Four shows in total .
Time : 2:22pm
They said that if u make a wish on those kinda timing , it will come true. And it did!! Omg im happy to the max today. Cabbing to work is not wasted at all. Hahaha.

Victory

2010-08-29T00:50:00.001+08:00

Youth League started . We had our first game against UWC not long ago. Won with the score of 4-1 . Of course I happy. A goal after so long , in a real match.
"Nad ! Move back ! Left with few more mins only"
The ref called me that ! "nad" . Naice.

2010-08-23T13:00:00.004+08:00

Before reaching the big " TWO " .

Firstly I wana thank those who wishes via everything. Appreciate it guys.

Well oh well , Nur Nadiah turned NINETEEN on 22 August.
Thank you to the Happy Pills

a BIG thank you to Chinee Peh for spending the entire day with me . Thank you for the long journey to Marina Barrage under the hot sun . Thank you for winning me in Monopoly Deal . Thank you for giving a hard time convincing you to have Nasi Ayam Penyet . Thank you for the Step up 3 and Thank you for planning the surprise with other girls . It was all worth the time alright .

You have been a great bro . And thank you for helping me out for my appeal . Though you can be soo annoying at times , You still rocks kay! * bro punch *

From the bottom of my heart,

Thank you :))

I am a happy girl :D (This shot was so difficult to take . Damn funny )

And as the clock strike 12 on 22 Aug , it gets pretty emotional . I used to waking up hearing Mum shouting Happy Birthday . It's pretty sad knowing that It will never happen again . And the only person who I can talk to this with is Opy . He truly understand how it feels. And the feeling just suck real bad . I cried , cried hard.

and oh . I think Apek gf's is stopping hime from sending me facebook msgs and etc . It's funny cause we are over since I was like ages ago ? Come on! Wishing me a "Happy Birthday " is effing fine! haha. whatever .
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Match later against RP . It's just a friendly in preparation for Youth League . It's cute seeing how the juniors are so excited for this match . Haha. Good Good! Passion is there :)) And Shanky owes me a present , make sure uh!!

And Resort World has chose me to be an Assistant Referee. How cool is that? COOOL SHIT! I can't wait for me to be on the field referee-ing guys match! fuuuh~ mesti cool . hahaha.

loved.

2010-08-21T00:43:00.002+08:00

Random meet-up with these sexy people is awesome .

So in anyway we had a rather very random meet-up to FatCow to have our icecreams .

Then we headed down to West Coast Park and had Cheesecake . Oh wait ! Had the best moment today , Nur Nadiah's weight isn't 60 kg . HAHA . Okay it made my day , I was totally worried about my weight few days back . Errmm . Not reallly worried lah cause I did splurge on food .

But in anyway that's not the point .

As quoted from Coach Naplah " Football is like a division of labour "

I still remember his lines as it really meant alot .

Youth League is coming . It's like REALLY coming . First game is on 28th Aug against UWC . FML . Buy hey ! Cant think negative cause then it will be half a battle gone . That was quoted from used-to-be Physio .

So yea , friendly on this coming Monday , pretty excited to see the line up .

NINETEEN SOON

Fugg

2010-08-20T15:33:00.001+08:00

Called in CIP today since I am so effing tired from yesterday's training . And since eyecandy isn't working today , might as well just call-in . Haha.

And I think my colleague thinks I like her . Yes , she's a girl . I know right!! This started when we were talking about lesbianism and etc . I did told her that once , just ONCE , i do have a crush on a girl . But that was like 5 years ago.
Yes! I do look at hot girls but that doesnt mean im senget okay . This sucks . Just hope that rumors wont go around at work:(

2010-08-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

Had a bad night . Slept at 8 am and woke up at 9 am to go to work . Been so effing tired lately .

Went Geylang with RT1 and ST1 . and omg! Perangai Babi! Bought alot of food which I really dont mind spending on . I had fun that day due to all the bitchiness . TSK2! Sesungguhnya aku berpuasa... haha.

Slept for like 3 hours .And cabbed down to work .Because never be late when you are working under the VIP department .

Genting Meeting . It's not just a meeting , it's the effing meeting ! So I was like expecting hawt guys in suits to attend the meeting , but well oh well , the first person who approaches me is an uncle in some $10 shirt with slippers. And oh ! It's not only one of them , Its kinda all of them . FML . I had to stood there for like 4 effing hours . My legs were sore , and I swear I felt like crying . Not kidding . Luckily the Traffic Warden guy decided to talk to me . Phhheeww~

After helping out with the VIPs , went back to LCA and start work at 2 when supposingly my shift is at 4 . What to do :( No eyecandy . Daniel is being so sweet today . Haha . He want to watch me play football . And it's Daniel! How surprising . I seriously love my tech services crew so freaking much <3>

Have not been sleeping well lately even Dad is getting pissed with me :(

"Your dark circles looks damn freaking bad! "

"I can't sleep lah "

" How to sleep? Everynight on the phone!!! "

I have not been on the phone for a pretty long time kay ,dad :(

I am tired . Time to sleep . Training tmr :)

2010-08-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

That's alright because I love the way you lie ...

I hate seeing these on the streets . It's not that I look down on them , it's just that it kind of hurts sometimes . They live not to suffer . How can they live life to the fullest and leave the world happily ? All they have to go through is hardship when they are here on earth. Is that what life is all about ? Doubt so .

Childrens definitely DO NOT deserve to have sucha childhood life . Fuck it!

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I didn't get the new tech guy name , but he is just as annoying as other techs .

Jo : Did you guys watched the YOG opening ceremony

Tech : I did . But I was walking around .

Jo : That's good that you are able to watch it " live " .

Tech : No . I didn't .

Jo : But you said .....

Tech : I was walking around the house . Cant meh ?!!

2010-08-13T20:42:00.002+08:00

Headed down to Seah Im after work yesterday to have dinner with Nicky my Bitchy Boy and Daniel . It was my last day spent with Nicky as his internship ended today and unfortunately I am not working today :(

Nic : Will you miss me?

"What do you think?"

"From your eyes I can see that you will miss me "

Of course I am going too miss the Bitchy boy . Who is gonna call me "Bitch " now . Who will willingly volunteer to do Goodbye wave with me sometimes? haha. Who is going to whine in the breakroom now?

That's the favourite boys! Or should I say men? The tech services crew . Being in the room alone with all these techs can make you go nuts !Love Tech Services to the max . I look forward to work everyday to hang out these Men .. Mwahaha.

2010-08-12T14:40:00.001+08:00

" Enh! Nadiah ! So girly alrd , don't scare me leh! Fuggg! "
Chua meiling , my primary sch bestest buddy to e max eventually said that to me . How sad to hear that . :(
I miss her :))

2010-08-11T20:12:00.003+08:00

Tell me he is hawtt . ohhh~ Kevin Connolly <3>

Everything went smoothly , Thank you God . But a little tough without mum's presence , noone to cook for Sahur and Buke . Lucky you guys who still have a mother around . Im jealous :) Everything I slept on the mattress Mom lie on ,on her final hours at home , I kept having weird dreams . I shouldn't say its a bad dream , it's just 'memorable' ? I kept dreaming that I am at the cemetery visiting Mom . But there's always alot of obstacles I have to go through before reaching Mom's grave . I dunoe wether it's just a random dream that occur so many times or is there a message behind those dreams? I don't know :)

till then .

1st day or ramadhan

2010-08-11T04:59:00.001+08:00

Work was hardcore to the max . A 30 mins bump had turn into a 2hrs 30mins . Too much of a difference .

Plus after 10-7 headed down to entrance for Goodbye Wave . Already so effing tired . But sometimes during goodbye wave , the smiles , laughter , high-fives from them really do make your day :))

And omg . Lazzy is being terminated yesterday . I can see that he was very sad to leave LCA :( when I saw him writting things on the board , i felt like giving him a hug. Just because of one stupid mistake. Lazzy lazzy:)) we shall play soccer soon kay .

I was really sad , jealous , dissapointed when I saw him with another girl . Some tried hard to convince me that they are just friends . But its kinda obvious they are not just friends ? More than that . So much for getting excited seeing him , rushing over to see his face . Oh boy, i shall let you go .

Sometimes all people can see is the smile on your and not the pain in your eyes . I have yet to find someone who could do the otherwise . I have to pretend so much and I am tired of doing it . Im not born to please anyone . I shall do what I fucking want to because it's my life bitches .

11 more days to my favourite number :))

2010-08-10T12:02:00.003+08:00

Nine-August-Twenty-Ten

So in anyway , went to Abg Radzi's wedding in the afternoon. Gosh I cant believe that he is already married now . I don't know why but I felt so happy for him . I miss hanging out with him . Listening to all his lame jokes .

After that headed down to City Hall to join in the atmosphere . For once , for once I am proud of my nation . Serious! I was so proud that I feel like joining the SCDF . Maybe I should? I wouldnt mind anw .

Im off to work trying to catch a glimpse of my eyecandy . mwahaha

All abt work

2010-08-09T10:25:00.003+08:00

Abg Radzi is getting married today. The one who used to look like my brother and boyfriend at work . 2 in 1 . Haha. I don't know why I am so excited for him . Guess we are too close :( He helped me alot when I am in so much trouble . So happy for him now . LCA is so fucked up to let go one of its best Greeter . Miss abg radzi to the core .

So many are leaving LCA . Which made me wonder why the fuck am i still here ? Wani , radzi or should i say all the pioneer batch are leaving . All thanks to BSG for closing down .

Jo is fucking iritating ! Everytime he sees my face for the first everyday he will sing me this annoying song . The lyrics are easy to memorise coz its just "farhan" in it .
Hafta to stop all these . It' s no longer mr eyecandy . Before he thinks im a freak , hafta put it to a stop .

Sending my resume to e coaching thingy . One thing i dislike is that i will be working with angmoh kids . Im afraid my eng too cheem for em , thats all :(

2010-08-09T10:25:00.001+08:00

Technical services

2010-08-07T20:24:00.001+08:00

I love LCA Tech services to the core . Its funny that the two different age group can click very well and regardless of race language or religion .so Happy birthday singapore!( kidding )

LCA tech services <3

I am taking over Shafiq's shift tomorrow only because I know that Farhan is working . Mwahahaha. I have Danial the techs to help me ! No more Eswaran , he cant keep secrets :( .

I am so tired im gonna die .

2010-08-05T00:05:00.003+08:00

Okay ,tilt your head a little . Cmon ! Don't be lazy asss!!

Finally posts with picture . I know it was pretty dull back then but I couldn't help blogging .

Headed down to Plaza Sing after work to catch streetdance with Myra . Though its a dance movie , the dancing weren't really jawdropping unlike the ones in StepUp . Plus the story didn't do any justice either . It was just " Okay-lah" .

Work was pretty draggy today maybe because of the small projection . It only got better when "angel-like" face appear before me . HAHAHA . I thought he was doing night shift but woohooo!And y'knw what ? " Nadiah keep asking about you " . He might now think that I am a psycho or something :(

But it was all okay when I got stuck in the OCC with Es , Johari and Myra .Effing made my day . Love them alot .

2010-08-04T08:50:00.002+08:00

Chinee Peh and me headed down to JB to do some shopping . Yes , Only the two of us . Amazing isn't it that we didn't get lost nor rob or whatever ? It was tiring , I swear it was . But it was all worth it . Bought 3 tops from F.O.S and the cashier guy is hawt , haha , that's not the point lah .There's so many embarrasing moments but I doubt I can share it here else Peh is going to kill me . Ouh yea , while we were on our way to Causeway checkpoint , an old guy rolled down the escalator . It was no laughing matter , it was damn sad to see that old man in that situation :( So in anyway back to Singapore at around 7+ .

Elder sis and her Bf moved in with us :) Having someone to cook you spaghetti for breakfast was awweessommee <3>

thats about it . takecare peeps .

Naplah

2010-07-31T01:52:00.001+08:00

It's really not easy to forget someone you once loved . I really miss talking to you on the phone , hearing your voice . I can't deny that you are one that I don't regret knowing. But , we were once friends and we should remain that way . We are not prepared for " Love" .

As I was on my way to LCA , bumped into Larry in the lift . Haha !! His laughter is damn fucking funny. I wasnt laughing at his jokes as I couldnt understand his angmoh accent but when he startd laughing , i just burst out laughing in which he then stared at me thus I have to shutup . It's so funny .

I miss having training twice a day for 5 days.Yea TWICE . Those were e naplah's days . Days when your stamina was at a tip top condition . Days when football was really in your blood . Haha!! Now . Its been fucking ages since i played soccer . I effing regret quitting YW . I miss those serious training . Ssiiiaann!!

It's JET

2010-07-27T00:53:00.001+08:00

" Hot blonde girl in the control room "
So the techs were getting excited upon seeing an angmoh with long blonde hair in the room . All were anxiously waiting for the person to come down from the room . Waited and waited . And finally .....
Its Jet, one of the iDB fella !! Hahahahahahaha!! Yea an angmoh with nice long blonde hair but its a guy !! Screw the tech services . Mwahahaha!! Thy were so fucking excited , damn funny!

Tiring day at work

2010-07-25T18:56:00.001+08:00

Work has been tiring lately , seriously tiring . At times I cant afford to put on a smile to the guests . Answering to the same question every 20 seconds is no joke . Sometimes i just feel like pasting a piece of paper on my forehead stating all the FAQs answers but when,There are kids who would come to you , wave and smile at you , some would even come close and try to hold your leg they do make my day . But there are some who would stare at you and when you try to be cute and smile and wave at them , they look elsewhere . I hate those tiny people !! And just now while doing preshow , a kid literally pee-d . It's just a video with loud noises , scary meh? Or is it im too scary looking. And that guy , i guess , is already in preschool . Come on!

No eyecandy today . I is sad .

Hey mum

2010-07-23T17:51:00.001+08:00

I dreamnt of mom today , and cried like really, actually, cried in my dream. I really miss her presence in my life . I just miss every single tiny bit of her . I miss her smile , her laughter , miss how she gets mad at me . I miss waking up seeing her next to me , haha , don't know how she managed to b right beside me w/o waking me up, so sneaky! Haha . Ouh my, Though its been months since she left, i am still not over it .
I am not looking forward to puasa nor hari raya , not even my birthday . celebrating when the person who brought you to this world left? Mom , I wish you were here , still :'( blogging about her does bring me to tears . I will visit you soon :)

Cherish the one you love when they are still around . Yes !! Fuvking cherish them!!

Fuck My Life

2010-07-21T21:22:00.001+08:00

The technicians are going crazy over unblock me. Eswaran was so hook to it that he held my phone for the entire day .

Farhan is well aware of things that is happening . All thanks to eswaran :))
This is so primary school but it will cause alot of awkward moment :/ i don't want it to happen . Seriously .

" Dont tell me youre sorry 'cause youre not
And baby when I know youre only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now its time to go, curtains finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But its over now
Go on and take a bow "

Shoopppiinnngg mood

2010-07-19T22:15:00.001+08:00

I am trying , trying my very best to let things go . It's not worth giving you the chance . That's it , no more dude , no more. I will try hard, very hard to forget you this time round .

Have been working hardcorely this month . Finally having my off tomorrow after working for 5 days straight . Tiring much . Hope HR won't cockup next month pay else I will be damn bloody pissed! It's not funny when you're working hard and you're underpay . Not funny . At all!

Plus I wana bring younger sis to bugis so as she could do some shopping . Im nice right? I know . This would only be possible if HR pay me correctly .

And
Because i need to do some bloody shopping alright!

work today was great . I don't know why . Played unblock me with johari in the control room . Funnayyee!
" i thought stuying was difficult , playing game is even tougher "-jo
No eyecandy today though he's the TS1 :(

Misunderstanding

2010-07-18T19:17:00.001+08:00

I just realised that I have been supporting myself for the past few months. No asking money from dad . Im very independent right? Say yes!!!

Wavehouse soon with colleagues. Looking forward to it.

Eswaran a 30+ year old guy with 2 kids is trying to be a matchmaker at work, putting me in a very weird position just now. Farhan is TS1 today .

Farhan is just an eyecandy kinda thing. Y'knw the kind that make u look forward to work and the kind that melt you when u see the person.yea he is that person.

But everyone misunderstood e whole situation.

Es : Farhan ade kat sini . Tak nampak ??
Nadh: Serious? No le.
*opens door*
Es: enh!! Farhan! Nadiah!!!!! Farhan kat sini ni!
Es: farhan ni nadiah! ( when we both actually know each other. Its damn weird)
I turned seeing farhan at e door. I seriously doesnt know how to react , both were expecting me to say something. I cant possibly jump in excitement seeing him , he might think I am a freak right? So must act cool abit and all i replied was
"orh!"
Both were like "wahlao"!
Farhan was damn lost. But fuggg ! I think he knows the situation. Awkward moment.

And johari another one.
Jo : Farhan was here just now! Got see him?go talk to him , get to know e kinda person he is and go for him.

Fuuuhhh!! I got alot of supporters sia!! He must be a good catch. Mwahahaha!
But seriously its an eyecandy thingy. I think. But it did make me high the whole day at work. Lols!

Fickle

2010-07-17T20:58:00.001+08:00

It's been donkey years since I last visited Mom. Fugg! They are going kubur tmr but I am on morning shift :( and mommy , my bdae coming , rmember ? :) U used to get excited when august is coming . Haha. Missing you .

And I've been offered a fulltime position at universal that offers to pay me more. Like effing more . Seriously. Still considering , not prepared for the tons of responsibilities just yet. Plus a job as a coach , for kids though. Sounds pretty interesting and paying quite well . But see how the response . An thinking of going back to IKEA. Idk , coaching interest me .
Fuggg, this annoy me.

And For once , for once he got pissed with me . But it wasnt my fault , I swear . He's just alittle too agitated.

Nadh :k you nak lik jb den go ahead, im not stopping you.
Opy : me ckp tak pegi , tak pegi uh !! Bosan uh mcm gini!!

But i like it though:))

Fickle

2010-07-17T20:57:00.001+08:00

Skirt today

2010-07-14T23:48:00.001+08:00

Headed down to town to meet BENJAMIN peh at around 4 . Had my Nasi Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza. I seriosly think I am addicted to it uh. Like seriously . So in anyway we had no idea where to slack so made our way to bugis via bus supposingly. But being a smartass , we eventually got lost . Yea Lost in Singapore . Haha. And so fortunate of BEN to have a friend like me , we managed to reach bugis safely . Haha.

I got myself a skirt/dress . Yea yea , nadiah and dresses seems wtf right ? But who cares?! Haha. Met up with Yas and had dinner at KFC . Yas home-d and we went to slack at CT hall's mac .

Home-d . And elder sis bought me an Ed hardy top which i thought was pretty nice . TY sis! :))

Opy : where are you frm?im still thinking of wether or not to go to work.
Nadh : from CT hall . For once ur hesitatin to go to werk ?! Interesting !
Opy : go der for wat? Mit bf ?
Nadh : slack .yeap bf . U gg mit ur gf den uh?
Opy : nope . My gf mitting her bf :(

Hahahaha. And he was just lying . He was at work by then . Told ya he's a hardcore worker .

BACK SOON

2010-07-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

You

2010-07-14T01:02:00.001+08:00

True friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face.

Missing mom badly . Fasting month is coming , and , it gonna feels weird without her presence . Hari Raya? Not looking forward to it. Its time to pay her a visit , soon . Missing you mummy. Hope you're doing well up there<3

2010-07-14T00:13:00.001+08:00

I've gotta admit I am a total loser .

Nadiah!!! Why so harsh ?
Looking back , I was really a bitch the other day :( wayy tooo bitchy .

Losing someone .

I need you still

2010-07-13T00:30:00.001+08:00

I really don't want this to happen.
I didnt meant what I said .

Have I ever told you how much I love being in your arms while you are playing my Parking Mania ? Haha. Looking how pathetic your driving skills are eventhough you have your godamn license? Calling you a Loser each time you hit the car ?
I know it may sound silly but i totally love it.

Remember the day i fell asleep waking up seeing you so busy playing with unblock me, haha , i was too tired to even bother about you but you pulled me closer to you and gave me a kiss on my forehead . Then wrapped me in your arms and........................................ continued playing. Haha. It was really sweet , i swear i melted . I really do. I still need soffian :)

Soffian Ayiwansa , I do love you . What I said yesterday was total bullshit. Text me will you?

Worrrrkkk

2010-07-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

Work was very interesting . So many unexpected things happened .

As I was standing at the greeter position , a guy came up to me asking me to take a pic of him . Since I wasnt attending to any guests, I agreed . He thenstarted to ask some questions and being a crew of universal studio I entertain all his questions and continued the convo . After which I got really tired and asked him to watch the show . He kept asking me to wait at my position till he is done with the show . I said " sure " knowing that i will be bumped out few minutes later . So pheew~ he is outta my sight . Haha. But it doesnt end there , when his grp is done I was already at grouper and that fella eventually passed hi bisnes card to zahiah who was at e greeter to pass it to me . Awwwww~ and effig shit , he is a singer and a GM . Wtf!! Coolshits .and he is indonesian .

A lot of things happened at work . I wish I could share it here . Damn!

After work dinner at pastamania and movie-d. Despicable me. Those aliens are soooo cute!!! Haha!!

Im sibei tired . I think Opy is at jB home :((

Finals

2010-07-10T08:33:00.001+08:00

Soffian is being such a sweeheart today and yesterday though he is a little annoying here and there . You rocks uh dumbass. Hee.

Almost forgotten that the finals is tomorrow that I have already agreed to night cycling for BSG . All I have to do is watch the rollercoaster turn and turn for 12hrs . Wtf right? But its cool, extra pay as its a sunday plus night shift. But I rather watch e finals . So call-in personal tomorrow :)) i think .

He is supposed to be on off today .but being sucha workaholic he agreed to work instead . Ass!!

Crraazzzyyy

2010-07-08T21:01:00.001+08:00

Work was ccccrrraaaazzzzyyy today , with nicky being fcuk in the ass by a chinese aunty for no apparent reason + nicky's hatred towards co-worker + expressionless guests + etc
The park today are filled with boring guests , I swear .

For the first time after ages I am doing opening tomorrow . Thank god ! Please bring in a bunch of ccccrrraaazzzyy guests .

And Opy-ing this saturday :D

Its all about Opy

2010-07-08T05:26:00.001+08:00

I forgotten to tell him that I am doing night shift for rollercoaster ride this Sunday .he is not really fine with it.

Opy ; " I know its gonna be okay , but you haven't convinced me that you are able to do it ."
Nadh : " you mean ?"
Opy : " yea lah , you havent convinced that you are able to take care of yourself "
I will !! And I can !!!
Opy : " we'll talk about this again "

Hahaha. And i think he's getting annoyed over alonso .
Opy : " pegi tido lah syg "
Nadh : " i am waitin for a call. Haha. "
Opy : " who? Alonso?! Tak abes2 alonso!"
Love you dumbass!!

And spain won. First thing to do was to bombard reza fb wall because he is one loser. Total loser .

<3 opy

Xabi I like you lah

2010-07-08T03:37:00.001+08:00

Nadh: Going back alrd uh?
Jo : Going back to Shrek .
*stop walking and stood still*
Jo :anw i might be bumping into farhan , do u wana pass any msg to him ?
And he is serious.

Hahaha! So funny ! They are serious in gettg me and him together. Then Opy wana put where? Your pocket? Lols .

Im beginning to love Opy effing extra more after that incident happened :)) beginning to treasure this annoying guy .

Met up w peh after work today . Starbucks > KFC
Funny convos in KFC , I like !!

Hey xabi alonso , you're hot can?!

Prayers heard

2010-07-06T22:53:00.001+08:00

" Me tk tahu nk kasi u bunga or pape but inside me i'm urs k "

2010-07-06T18:10:00.002+08:00

You were all worried when I was away from you ..

Opy Dopefiend June 20 at 3:49 pm

ya syg me miss u too dear .U lik kite meet k syg me promise k . jgn notti k .

Opy Dopefiend June 20 at 3:59 pm

ya u tknk discuss ngn me mah u degil !! U takecare syg k

Opy Dopefiend June 20 at 4:07 pm

u jgn notti k syg . IMY k.N i love you dear .

So can you imagine how fugg up my life is now?

You'll realised how much you love and care for someone once they are away from you .

I am sorry if I have been a bitch lately . I am not sure what went wrong though . You were fine before you left me hanging . If it was my mistake , then , tell me . I will change , if it's for the better . But now , you're being so unreasonable and unfair .

Thanks Opy , Thanks .

2010-07-06T14:22:00.002+08:00

Hiding the fact that something is bothering you isn't easy . You can be smiling the whole day , but your eyes says it all ..
I don't know what you really want now . I am clueless . You left me hanging all of a sudden .

I am really hoping that things would get better . I want it to get better . Badly .

Seriously , I got no other things to talk about , because all I can think about now is about this piece of shit .

I'll pray hard that we will be fine again .

2010-07-06T01:15:00.002+08:00

Went out with Suzy for her job thingy
Causeway Point to have our late lunch as she was starving
Bukit Batok for takoyaki and Bubble Tea
Met up with Shikin
Mac-ed for her dinner
Home-d

Please don't leave me hanging this way . I hate it .

Behind every smile , there's pain .

2010-07-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

I need another holiday SOON . Mr Soffian is so busy saving up for his studies and a car . Fugg him ! Already managing a bike is so difficult . How to go on a holiday now ? How to go Genting now ? How to pursuade him for Bali then ? STUDIES + CAR = NO HOLIDAY . I seriously feel like going Bali , I shall use my " charms " amd tackle this guy for Bali . Hehehe .

I hate World Cup . Thanks to world cup he is so busy watching soccer instead of spending the time over the phone . Effing saddening can . Its like when you are in a convo and he suddenly says " I go watch soccer first can? " How rude is that ? Haha . And I'll just hang up on him . RUDE-R . But he starts it first .

I seriously wana ask him to change his work shift . Its not funny when you are awake or at work, he is aslp . And when he is awake or werking , you are sleeping . No joke siol ! Haa.

Okay bye .

2010-07-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

Had 9-a-side tournament yesterday at ITE Tamp . We got in third place which wasn't that bad . As usual , AMK took the first place . Met with few of ex-teammates . Kinda miss playing for U19 . Though it was more disciplined in the team , I like it . Everyone are so competitive wanting to play for the first eleven and etc . It was great .

And I hate it when people keep repeating the same old thing. Once twice and maybe thrice I am still able to take it . But when you keep saying it , it's not funny at all. Instead it seriously gets on my nerve and spoils my freaking mood . So yea , just say it once , I GET IT! Or maybe twice and that's really enough. else just fugg off..
And I dislike being forced to do things that I am unwilling to do . Thanks .

Work today . I didn't see Farhan today . How sad .

till then , bye.